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Mental Health

Having to do with my mental health journey, or what I have learned about mental health.

Memory (no, not that Memory)

2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. How do you remember, is it all in one goMemories on display like paintings, all in a rowI don’t know -me, “Can’t” Normal I spend a lot of time comparing my capabilities with those of other people. It typically ends with me wondering why I don’t seem to live up to the standards of “normal” I see around me. It’s discouraging,… Read More »Memory (no, not that Memory)

Imposter Syndrome:

The Gift That Keeps on Giving Doesn’t Know When to Quit 2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. Recently we both registered with SOCAN1 in preparation for the release2 of the EP. It’s brought up a whole lot of feelings: excitement, anticipation, impatience, and pride, but also anxiety, insecurity, guilt, dread, and doubt. I thought I’d take some time to revisit the idea of imposter syndrome and unpack where some of these… Read More »Imposter Syndrome:

Cancelled

2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. I do not like to cancel plans; I find it extremely stressful. On the other hand, once something is cancelled, especially when someone else has to cancel our plans, it can feel like a relief. My default state is Not Doing Anything, and hauling myself out of that is almost always difficult, regardless of how much I actually do want to… Read More »Cancelled

On the Pandemic

2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. This is a blog post written in part nearly a year ago and in part just before posting. I went to edit it into something more appropriate to the present day, and I thought, no, I should leave what I wrote back then intact because it conveys a different flavour of hopelessness than what I feel now. I hope you enjoy,… Read More »On the Pandemic

Visual Timer

2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. A couple of months ago I bought myself a visual timer. Visual timers are basically what they sound like. Once set, they give a visual cue as to how much time is left before they go off. And it is so much easier to get an idea of how time is passing when you’re using one. I love my visual timer. It’s pink,… Read More »Visual Timer

Obscured

2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. I wasn’t sure quite how I was going to put this, but I knew it was something I was going to have to say sooner or later. After much internal debate and struggle, I’ve settled on this phrasing: I don’t do well with ambiguous sensory input. Let me explain. I don’t like being in a dimly lit room (actually dark is… Read More »Obscured

Regret

2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. I try not to regret. Oh, sure, little things like saying the wrong thing when I was trying to engage in small talk. I’ll regret those. I really regret those. But I try not to regret the big things. It’s possible I’ve been overly influenced by the Hallmark-type movies where the protagonist wishes in passing that they’d never… and then finds out what… Read More »Regret

Battery Saver

2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. It was Adam who recognized the state we were in. “We’re living in Low Power Mode.” It’s true. Some pretty basic tasks have been disabled to save power for the things we can’t survive without. But unlike a phone, we can’t just plug ourselves in until we’ve charged enough to leave Low Power or Battery Saver Mode. Humans are more complicated.… Read More »Battery Saver

Slippery Slope

2026 NOTE: My diagnostic situation has changed since I wrote this. See this post and the series of posts starting here for more information. Have you ever run down a steep hill? Maybe it was a sidewalk, maybe it was a sand dune. Maybe it was a grassy knoll. Doesn’t matter, the principle is (more or less) the same. When you’re running down a steep hill, you’re never really totally in control. Maybe your heels are skidding as you try to keep from falling over.… Read More »Slippery Slope

Stickers

We bought stickers from one of those custom branding places where you upload your logo and you can put it on all kinds of merchandise. We just thought, “I wonder if we could get stickers printed,” and then we did. Three sheets of twenty. We had a coupon code and took it out of the EP budget and in the grand scheme of things it wasn’t too bad. Why do we need stickers? Well, officially, we’re going to stick them on all our equipment and… Read More »Stickers