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Anxiety

The Buzz

If I’m not really relaxed, and I do feel relaxed occasionally, there’s probably a buzzing in my head. The volume runs from wasp through circular saw right up to whatever horrible thing the workers are using outside to re-something the thingy. It depends on how many things are creating the buzz and how serious my brain thinks they are. The Buzz, as I call it, puts a blanket over my ability to engage in any sort of thinking activity. Trying to force through it may give me… Read More »The Buzz

Learning with an Audience

I don’t know how many people actually enjoy doing things wrong, but I have to imagine there are plenty who don’t hate it as much as I do. I can just about do it when I’m on my own, but the problem with learning by making mistakes on your own is that you probably don’t know you’re making mistakes or, more important, you don’t know how to fix them. That’s where teachers come in. Someone who’s already past the stage of making your particular mistakes,… Read More »Learning with an Audience

The EP: Demo Day

This is less edited than usual, since I’ve written it mostly yesterday (in relation to the day I post it). Please enjoy the haphazard nature of today’s musings. There’s a project that’s been on my mind for several years now: going into a studio and recording my/our own songs. We’ve been saving up, birthdays and Christmases and what we could spare from bonuses and tax refunds. The process so far has been very slow. But now, we’re finally moving. We’re working on demos of the… Read More »The EP: Demo Day

Anxiety, etc.

The first topics I want to address very deliberately are mental health topics: bipolar, last week, and today anxiety. Across these posts I’ll also be sharing some examples of how my mental illness has influenced my songwriting. Why write this here? (you may be wondering.) This seems to be a blog situation, not a journal. Well, (I answer,) I have multiple goals. I want to share honestly what it can be like living with mental illness for people who don’t, and for people who do… Read More »Anxiety, etc.